Sunday, November 7, 2010

My Testimony...

Yesterday, I woke up and went to the temple. I have had a lot of things on my mind from the past week and I needed to go to the most important place and think. The entire time I was at the temple I was filled with such a sweet and calming spirit. As I sat in the celestial room, I pondered about my testimony of the gospel. I kept having a repeat feeling that I need to get up in sacrament and bare my testimony. As scared as this thought made me, I knew that the time was here. Well, today in sacrament there was so many people that felt that same way because there wasn't a break where I felt comfortable to walk up and put the feeling to rest. The feeling was incredibly strong for me to share my thoughts and bear my testimony and I didn't.

My heart is full of gratitude for my trials and many blessings. I look around and see how much can be taken for granted. We are so blessed to have so much at our fingertips. I have learned so much and know how easy it is to get caught up in so many other things of less importance. Life is truly a test for each of us. As we make decisions, consequences follow. Whether it be a good consequence or a bad consequence. We live and learn and pick up to move forward on to the next event. I love my life and am grateful for the opportunities that have blessed my life. I am especially grateful for my sweet children and for my loving husband. I am so blessed to have so many great friends as well. I am still under shock at how well everything worked out in closing our store. After much prayer and fasting, Jeff and I knew that the time had come to close. Heavenly Father truly had his hand in this. Everything went so smooth. He blessed me with so much comfort in knowing that whatever comes next in life, I can handle. I am a new person and have a whole new perspective.

I know that Thomas S. Monson is a true and living prophet, called of God. I know that the Book of Mormon is true. I have a deep testimony of eternal families. Although not all of my siblings have gone through the temple, I have an un-dieing faith that one day they will see the light and except the gospel back into their lives. I still remember my wedding day when kneeled across the alter in the temple and looked into Jeff's eyes. I knew from that moment that we would be together forever. He is such a wonderful husband and father. How did I ever deserve such a wonderful life? What a great blessing it is to have the gospel and to know that there is a reason for being here aon earth at this time. Everything happens for a reason. I hope and pray that one day my whole family can be sealed in the temple. I love my siblings and can't imagine not having them with me in the next life.

I have been blessed with wonderful neighbors and friends. My patriarticle blessing specifically says that I will have many friends in my life. It talks about me lending a word of encouragement to everyone who I come in contact with. I have had many people bare their soul to me. It has been very interesting to me to read my blessing often. Each time I read it, I learn something new about myself. There is so much to work on and so much to learn while on earth.

I say these things in the name of Jesus Christ, Amen.